I hate physics. I’m sleepy. I’mma nap…
I just made another hospice visit. And although my patient lives in a memory care facility and she is often confused, she reiterated some things that I’ve been told a million times by people whose opinion mattered little to me. She felt disrespected often and described her interaction with health professionals as “being treated like zombies.”
Right then and there I had some realization. I mean…I’ve had the realization before, but this time it really meant something. How physicians really should treat their patients like human beings rather than broken machines. And then later she talked about her being in her 90s and and her acceptance of oncoming death. This visit was so different from the others.
Last week, I was “Bobby” the man who ran the facility. Today I was “Bobby” the man who’s going to be a great physician in the future. My name isn’t Bobby, but she associates Bobby with all things good and the staff pretty much gave me that name.
I hate walking to the wrong parking lot on campus. They are at opposite corners. It’s a 10 minute walk. So I’m spending 20 alone minutes walking to my car. Fml
Here’s Your Letter
(Title is a Blink 182 song reference)
I saw a friend post something about a letter they wrote to themselves when they were in middle school meant for their future selves. I’ve never done that (or I don’t remember doing anything like that?). But I think I want to do something right now.
Here I am as a 21-year old. With my current thoughts and perspective on life, spirituality (or lack thereof), happiness and fulfillment. I’m aware that these things may change. I’m just curious about how I’d react as a 30-year-old reacting to my 21-year-old self. I really do hope some things stay the same though. Then again, I thought that way when I was 12, but I really prefer how I am at present.
Well whatever. I am going to write a letter to myself. About my goals and what it means right now to me to have a fulfilling life; what I care about at present time; and everything that I want to happen in the future while still maintaining that things may not go according to plan and that’s okay.